A Meditation On My Thoughts Of Love, And The Love I Come To Know!~
I dreamed a dream that real love was so real!
I dreamed love was a tangible reality we all could feel!
I dreamed love was all powerful, and it was power that could not be denied!
I dreamed love was a spiritual host that dwelt on the inside of me, and it was all mines!
I dreamed love was everything I desired and everything wanted to be!
I dreamed love as a spiritual entity, THE GOD IN ME!
But I had seen where my love was not valued, and people treated my love less holy than it is or should be!
I seen where I had given my love to people who could care less about the value of love, and they were not worthy of the love in me!
I seen where I drew a definitive line in the sand, and made a decision, I’ll be damned if I let another person disrespect the THE GOD IN ME!
The love I know!
I have seen love at its best, I have seen love fail the test of love.
I have seen love risen from the grave.
I have seen love abused and betrayed, and yet I found myself still wanted this thing called love!
I searched for love for days and nights, I sought after her in relationships that were not right.
And yet I found still myself wanting true love.
They say true love is hard to find.
I agree, because true love is in your heart, not in your mind.
And the mind they say is a terrible thing to waste, then why am I wasting my time?
Why am I wasting my mind?
When love is not there, she don’t really care, she just tells me what she wants me to hear.
This woman says Reese, I love you!
But my conscience says, Reese, you know it’s not true, she can never really love you for you.
Because love is not in her heart, it’s in her mind.
I’m talking about the love of a different kind.
A love tested by time, a love that’s all mines.
The world will tell you I love you, and break your heart.
People will lie to you like they lie to GOD.
And GOD will question the love in me, saying, Reese, is this REAL LOVE?
Love can be painful, love hurts, some say love has never hurt anyone, but I beg to differ.
Have you ever expressed your love, but your love was taken for granted?
And your love was taken advantage of, and looked upon as weakness.
Have you ever felt the pain of love, and realized your heart has changed?
Have you hurt for another person’s life, and felt someone else’s pain?
Has your heart filled up with compassion, until it starts to swell?
And someone else’s pain becomes your own, and makes it so surreal.
As tears are forming in your eyes, and then you start to cry, and these feelings become a part of you, and you never ask the reason why?
This is love, the pain of love.
There is no cure or antidote for this pain, this love, and neither is there any remorse.
To satisfy this pain, this love, you must return to the source.
Love!
The complicated love!
She says she does not understand, but I’m like putty in her hands.
She says I’m a complicated man.
But she does not understand, love can be a complicated thing.
Especially when love is not what it seems.
And love is only a distant thing, a fairy tale, a long awaited dream.
But yet and still I dream, I dream of love.
A place where love is what love is, not what you make it.
A place where love is taken seriously, and you don’t have to fake it.
And love is always there just waiting for you to embrace it.
And yet I wonder is it me or could this be love?
Out of my frustration I speak my pain.
Knowing what love is hoping she might change.
But change itself complicates things.
Because change began with me, I changed.
I have changed my mind, and my speech, I have changed my ways, and what I teach.
Because judgment begins with me, judgment begins at the house of GOD.
I must redeem the times because the days are evil.
There is a love out there that has no equal.
My story will end but there is a sequel.
I shall die, but I shall live.
Because I found out what love truly is.
Love is not a complicated thing!
A free psalm, “A Meditation on My Thoughts of Love, And the Love I Come to Know”, by Reese Kemp!