There are times when I know I need someone else’s help.
And then there are times when I think about my weakness as only I could.
Where I wrestle with being the man of GOD, and I struggle with being damaged goods.
Sometimes I see myself as a man torn apart.
But my conversations with GOD, and the honest cries of the heart, is the only thing that keeps me connected to GOD.
Now I know I have issues with trust, for no one knows my soul, but GOD, so I only believe in us.
I think I seen far too much betrayal in the eyes of people who say they love me, that I causes me to see things in people I don’t want to see.
I think I suffered so much pain and hurt from people who claim to love me, that It might have effected me beyond what I see.
Trust is the only thing I have to hold that’s worth it’s weight in gold, and that’s what GOD has asked of me.
Trust is what stands between you and me, for my trust is a great commodity, and I struggle with giving my trust to people who say and claim they love me, but their love for me is subject to change with time, seasons, and the reality of their NOW……………………………
So what I do now is write the VISION, and make it plain, so I can see it on paper, and ENVISION change.
For we can only face the truth we allow ourselves to see, beyond the pain and hurt we suffered in life…..
For every experience we experience in life is knowledgeable, people just try to repress or forget the knowledge they gained from the experience, because sometimes the experience is far to devastating to acknowledge….
For you cannot have or possess knowledge without experience, for you must experience what’s knowledgeable to have knowledge, even if that knowledge is gained from pain, hurt, and betrayal.
A psalm, A Conversation of The Heart With GOD, By Reese Kemp!~
(Zechariah 13:4-6) And it shall come to pass in that day, that the prophets shall be ashamed every one of his vision, when he has prophesied; neither shall they wear a rough garment to deceive: But he shall say, I am no prophet, I am an husbandman; for man taught me to keep cattle from my youth. And one shall say unto him, What are these wounds in your hands? Then he shall answer, Those with which I was wounded in the house of my friends.
(Ezekiel 33:30-33) Also, You son of man, the children of your people still are talking against you by the walls and in the doors of the houses, and speak one to another, every one to his brother, saying, Come, I pray you, and hear what is the word that comes forth from the LORD. And they come unto thee as the people comes, and they sit before you as my people, and they hear your words, but they will not do them: for with their mouth they shew much love, but their heart goes after their greed and covetousness. And, lo, you are unto them as a very lovely song of one that has a pleasant voice, and can play well on an instrument: for they hear your words, but they will not do them. And when this comes to pass, (lo, it will come pass,) then shall they know that a prophet has been among them.